so near.

was just reading matthew 14:22-36; the story of peter walking on water.

everyone who has attended sunday school or attends church would have read/heard of the story of peter walking on water. edwj also mentioned about this story like few months back. today's reading just reiterated one point to me:

when peter lost his balance when he saw the wind, Jesus was like very near him, near enough for peter to see and hear Him. yet he fell because he just didn't believe that even though Jesus was so near him, Jesus wasn't able to do anything for him. maybe what was going on in peter's mind was 'wow! i can walk on water! i have to balance well lest i fall!'

sometimes, i myself am like that. God gives me faith to believe, things are starting to look gd, i lose focus of God and think that i'm doing this on my own.

sometimes i just need to remind myself that God gave me my beginning. i didn't start on my own but God gave me faith to believe in Him, that my beginning would be possible. and when God starts something, He will finish it.

moreover, the wind didn't even reach peter. peter just saw the wind.

faith diminishes especially when circumstances are so overwhelming. and it just gets worse when discouragement sets in.