zzzz

i think i laughed too much. i feel like i'm having gastrics. haha.

oh wells. the antibiotics aren't finished yet. guess it'll be over by 2mr and i'll be back to normal (: with no more weird stuff going down my throat. hehs. (: i feel so much healthier now compared to the past few days.

supposed to be doing work - pi and gp to be exact. ended up doing the zone2a video dedication for george. yea. it was supposed to be completed by ytd but jo only gave me her testimony at 12 so i had no choice but to do it today. since 2mr will be the rehearsal already, might as well complete it by today and 2mr i can concentrate on doing my other hw. *yawns*

yaye. the video is done. i'm so happy (: hehs. so proud of myself. my first video ever made. lala. not up to standard yet. all becoz of lynn. one grammar mistake. ahh!! lols but too lazy to amend.

ahh!!!!! i forgot to add audrey's testimonial to the video!!! oh no.....aahhhh......*sigh*

i'm like so dead. so no mood to do anything. haven't even done my rough plan for pi even tho we don't need to hand in the pi 1st draft 2mr. then supposed to also hand in gp essay 2mr. but i dont intend on doing it today, since erm, today is almost gone. haha. i plan to do it after i finish my pi ba. i'm like so sian. so dead. so not willing to do anything. just give me a good day of rest. with nth to stress me. ahhh wad a life. so dead, so useless. if i had known better, i'd have appealled to sp too. at least i'll be rotting now if i were to go sp. *yawn*

tho i'm all right, i'm like still sick and dying.

everyone is so stressed up. me too. but i'm happy today (:

falling

"...let your fear turn into faith!"

these words appealled to me in the film they viewed during chap's hour today. for one, it stood out coz moses said it with great conviction and power. i always feel so small and little in God's presence. He's like this big, giant God. without God i really can't do anything. sometimes i just feel like shoving everything away and just focusing on Him. He's my best friend, my Lord and my Saviour. but circumstances strengthens my faith in Him.

yea. i'm still kinda sick. not done with the coughing yet. i just hope the coughing wld go away. my throat feels like the sahara, so dry, not hot. and i can't seem to get enough water into my system to prevent my throat from drying up.

what a friend said made me think. will history repeat itself? is my life going to take another turn from the turn it took when the yr started? will i be able to handle? will i be able to cope? of coz, i'm just guessing. i'm praying so hard that things wld work out the way it should.

human behaviour. no. not about pw. it is smth so incomprehensible. smth which i can nv fathom. not that i go ard observing each and everyone, in fact i'm a bad observer unless i'm told to observe. just that ppl behave in such a way that realy annoys u. i always wonder y it happens in seasons.

yea. and i was supposed to finish my PI today. but no, i just don't have the mood for doing PI now. all those brain-blasting stuff. i can't really cope with the amount of info stored in my brain, implying my brain is small, haha, i don't really use much of my brain anyways. guess it's just there to fill up the hollow in my skull...

"...people will judge u for what u have not done..."
"...a time of stretching of ur faith..."

these 2 sentences will always remain in my head until, probably, when Jesus comes back.

JC life's not really that hard to cope with. u must think i'm joking. in fact, no. it's really not hard to cope with. adjusting ur mindset to ur timetable and using every free time wisely makes a great difference in ur life if u were once a slacker who only knew how to stare at the monitor every min u had. it makes a great difference by putting studies first. and when u finally achieve that, u'll find that actually, u do have a lot of time to rest too (:

yea. i'm just crapping on my own here. trying to get some thots out of my brain after the tedious brain-storming of PI. i'm like so drained. physically, mentally and prob spiritually.

hoping u wld come by
but all i see are shadows

only time will tell.

sick and dying. haha

haha i'm still sick. unfortunately. i think it got worse after i saw the doc. =/

so it's 6 days now and counting. hmm when will i ever get well? rephrase: when will the curse end? haha! oh wells. i just need to adapt my life to taking antibiotics and weird pills. yea. and thank God i don't have to drink star fruit juice. haha!! which, sad to say, it's strongly reccommended by rach. lols!

can't talk properly, can't speak clearly. so sad. i can't even talk to my friends without coughing after 10 sentences. the worse part is the coughing. sian.

i'm so tired now. so many deadlines to rush. and i havne't gotten the rest of the testimonials yet!! ahhH!!! and i just failed my math test. i didn't study for it. so not surprising...lols. and i think it's like counted for CA or smth? haha oh no...

then again, my angel is dead lah. i'm like so nice to my mortal and i haven't received ANYTHING from my angel. haha. oh wells. but i have really nice friends. so that kinda balances up everything else. hehs.

rushing PI now. ahhhhhh i want to sleep. i need my sleep so badly ):

sigh...

yes. i'm sick and dying. still...

ok. mebbe i'm not cursed. haha. just that i really overworked myself and fell sick. and i doubt the cough and sorethroat is going away any moment now. bad cough. bad throat. bad health. haha

i can't drink cold water coz it irritates my throat. i can't really eat rice coz it itches my throat too. i can't erm..basically i can't eat much coz of the throat. it's not exactly sore. it's just irritating. haha. more like i laughed too much and it kinda expanded/contracted my throat. i guess it's a muscle ache. coz i've nv laughed so much in my entire life before. haha! last time it used to be my jaw, now it's my throat. *shrugs*

haha but i think i'm feeling better than fri/sat. ya. must thank my zone guys too. haha. they bothered to ask me how i was. coz i didn't go for fri's p&w session and neither did i turn up for the ldr's outing. the went bowling lah. and i cldn't go coz i was sick :( haha. but anyhows, i think my zone guys are pretty nice ppl. even tho they ALWAYS make a fool out of themselves and behave so crappily...haha..they are nice ppl (: hees. i love my zone man.

rach didn't pass me the geog notes today. thank God. haha! coz she had to sing. lols. i didn't laugh at all the Ps ytd. i didn't laugh like laugh how i usually laugh at them. i didn't laugh on sat. but when i saw her. she somehow reminded me of ppym and reminded me how i laughed in B16. and i started laughing AGAIN. man. rach. how cld i laugh during praise man. *sigh* haha. but i got over it, finally. haha and after svc i saw rach and i started laughing again. haha but i cldn't really laugh due to my THROAT. haha!

anyhows, went to my cousin's house to slack. we didn't do anything there. haha! except staring at the tv and rot. lols. then came back home. wad a day. i finally did smth for PI. lols. i finally knew what the qn was! haha. oh man. and i have to hand in on thurs. aahhh.....

got the green light from annette...can start finishing george's presentation already (:

sick

i feel super sick. is it coz i've been working too much or is it coz of retribution? haha. i ever tried sleeping so much that i fell sick, twice that is, and now, i've laughed so hard that i'm falling sick. haha. why...

i'm not going to laugh at ppym, ppf or pkb, or pk or what purple cow or pink pig. -.- look! the p curse!! i better not suffer from any sickness starting with the letter 'p' when i go see the doc 2mr. then i'm really cursed man.

ahhh i feel so sick. shld i go church? or shld i stay home to rest? i think i'm dying soon.

the curse of the Ps

needless to say, i didn't stay to watch the sa-ij match. i mean. it's so obvious sa wld win right? since we won ac and hc? (: hehs. and weiping just msged me that we scored 2 goals out of so many missed goals already. hahas. wad a striker.

honestly, i think i'm like one of the pro-est slackers. haha. i can come online like everday and almost all the time when i'm at home. like i've got no hw, no tutorials, no readings to do. but actually i do have u know. haha. it's only a matter of whether i have the heart to finish up my work or not.

i almost died laughing.

the laughing gas somehow got into my system and stirred up all the fits, making me laugh. not to mention rena too. we laughed from, erm, i guess yesterday after sch til today. and i hope we WON'T be laughing 2mr, coz we'll be on duty. it'll be so malu if we laughed during anthem, having all the teachers turning ard to stare at us. haha! i really can't imagine and i wldn't want to imagine either.

and then, the curse of the Ps. PPYM. PPF. PKB. and of coz the Poke. what's wrong with the letter P??? haha! i think only lsn wld know what do these acronyms stand for. if not, then i guess only rena and i will understand. and we just can't stop laughing. oh man. i feel so evil.

raymond knows abt papayamilk. haha and she received a letter from her angel today. the angel asked raymond to pass to her somemore. so funny lah. if rena was there i think we'll both die laughing. i DID laugh but i looked like a moron laughing to myself. so i didn't really laughed until i die. just laughed non-stop. haha. and everytime ppf walked past i'd start laughing again. man. i feel so evil laughing at ppl. *sigh*

and guess what? i laughed so much until i fell sick. no, i wasn't sick when i left the house. i suddenly felt so sick on the bus. LOL. so cmi. suddenly my nose started to run and there's this pain feeling in my throat. bad karma. i laughed too much.

and today i kept seeing ppf ard me. -.- like oh man. i think i'm cursed. hahahahahhahahaa!!!

and the punch line of the day...
*waves and zooms off

ahahahaahhahahaahahhaha!!!

man i feel so evil...

more quizzzeeesss!!!

Are You Right or Left Brained?

You Are 30% Left Brained, 70% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning.
Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.
If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.
Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.

The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.
Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.
If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.
Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

i realized i used more of my left brain last time and now i'm using my right brain. wow! i have a brain! ahahhahahaha!!

quizzess!!

What Gender Is Your Brain?
Your Brain is 53.33% Female, 46.67% Male
Your brain is a healthy mix of male and femaleYou are both sensitive and savvyRational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headedBut you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

How Normal Are You?
You Are 40% Normal(Somewhat Normal)
While some of your behavior is quite normal...Other things you do are downright strangeYou've got a little of your freak going onBut you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself

What Personality Disorder Are You?
You May Be a Bit Dependent ...
You're more than a little preoccupied with being abandoned.You need a lot of support in your life, at all times.It's difficult for you to survive on your own...And you don't reallly think you ever could.


What's Your True Birth Month?
Your True Birth Month Is June

FussyAbidingFriendlyStubbornTalkativeSensitiveExecutiveHesitatingEasily hurtActive mindEasily bored DaydreamerLoves to jokeTends to delayTemperamentalBrand consciousLoves to dress upHaving lots of ideasGood debating skills Funny and humorous Thinks far with vision Prone to getting coldsPolite and soft-spokenAble to show characterSeldom show emotionsKnows how to make friendsEasily influenced by kindness Takes time to recover when hurtChoosy and always wants the bestThose who love me are enemies; Those who hate me are friends

coz all i have left are just memories of u...

i didn't want to get up. i was still wondering why i slept so late the night before. i had planned to sleep at 10, then 11, then after isaac finished receiving the song, it was already reaching midnight.

it's only wed. i almost felt like i was totally drained, no energy, no mood, no spirit to get up and get ready for what's prepared for me in sch. usually i'll do devotion on the bus, just today, i didn't felt like doing. *shrugs* suddenly i lost interest in everything else.

i just talked to God. did my usual debate with Him. all right. i felt better after the day progressed. God is a good God (: i won't deny He scolded me, of coz i can't be right, since God's always right. ya. but i donno, just like what eunice said abt when ps rachel scolds u, u just feel motivated. i guess it's abt the same feeling. (:

guess i was pretty dao today, giving a black face where ever i went. no wonder no one talked to me. haha coz basically i was super tired and all. haven't been having a gd sleep since 3 weeks now. think i'll prob fall sick like weiping. haha. both of us are falling sick. lol. don't think i'll make it for the bowling outing on sat with the rest of the leaders :( and that wld be samuel's farewell outing. and i can't go?? i'm so sad lah. prob if i manage enough energy i'll go. since there's agm on sunday and i can go home early to sleep. will be praying so hard man. coz i don't want to sleep during sermon.

yups. and there's george's video to do. *sigh* i want 48hrs a day. that way, i can sleep for 24hrs. (:

i haven't given anything to my mortal yet. i feel so guilty. haha!

spent the day after sch with rena. coz i hardly get to see her also. yea. but i think we've been spending too much time together also. haha. ya. but that's what i like abt best friends (: no matter how long we spend together, we always have smth to talk abt. be it crap, being mean, or just plain talk (: haha i love the times we just laugh and laugh and can't stop laughing (:

and today rena made me waste money smsing rach. -.- and rach! i am not crazy lah!! ur the crazy one...eat so much mentos. hope one day there'll be no more mentos left and u'll have to survive on air!! rahhhhh~!

won't be going for prayer meeting 2mr. ha. i don't get to see rach. gd. at least she won't start suaning me so soon. yea. that is she'll start on sunday -.-

oh yes! rach's present!! haha!!

went for ava training. haha saw weiquan playing badminton in the hall. his hair was so CMI!!!!! whahahaha!! CMI!!! lols! wad a hairstlye. all right. i shan't laugh at ppl, it happened to me too. lols! ya. then HAHA!! only rena and i went for the training today. haha!! so cmi. then fri we are supposed to do hall duty. LOL i think i'll prob just laugh and laugh and not do anything. lols. it's not exactly funny but i'll just be so blur that i don't know what to do that i'll just laugh and laugh. lols!

OH YES. ava ppl are cheeeennnaaaish. -.- they spoke to me in chinese all the way and i almost died of chinese. haha!! but thank God the president wasn't cheennaish so ya, at least i heard sufficient english for the day. else i think i'll prob migrate to usa. LOL just a joke.

zhao bo didn't believe i took hcl. he DIDN'T believe. -.- like what do i look like man? some ppl say i look english, some ppl say i look cheenaish, some ppl just insists that my chinese sounds weird -.- ya, i admit my chinese sounds english to certain ppl, and my exclassmates have said that i sound weird speaking chinese -.- ok. i find it weird to hear myself speaking chinese too. haha!! oh wells!!

talking to esther now. she's like ENJOYING her life in aus now. haha well, to me she's enjoying and having loads of fun there. as compared to in sg that is. yea. i don't mind going aus to study, since alicia and mebbe even isaac will be going over there too. it's like so much fun to read esther's blog and stuff. real new experience. aha. ya. but then i'll be missing my family and friends here in sg. church and all too. yea. all the pros and cons. hehs.

watched "what i like abt u" last night. i miss all the english shows like "friends" and "charmed". oh yes! there's "joey" now! haha! joey's so funny. lols. i miss "friends" man. just like i miss my friends...

i've never felt this way before

all of a sudden everything around me starts to change. for the better and for the worse. it's like suddenly my life's been turned upside-down, inside-out, round and round. i feel sick.

i know God's doing smth in my life. smth gd of coz. God loves me so much. He won't harm me for goodness sake.

yups. but to know that God's doing smth in ur life and to live through that change are 2 different things.

then again, this sense of nostalgia keeps coming back. it's not that i've not been spending time with my frens this yr, but somehow, i still miss those ppl whom i chat with online almost every night, exclassmates, like 2yrs ago. is my life such that i feel so friendless mixing ard with ppl in my sch now? or is it such that i feel guilty for not keeping in contact with my long-lost friends? or is it i'm just so tired of being ard ppl now?

the past 2 yrs really change me alot. my perspective of life, my attitude towards ppl, my readiness to share to others and how i'd react to circumstances. i wldn't say i suffered from some kind of a setback but rather, a valuable experience. i guess, an experience that probably changed my life totally. an experience that till now, i'm still climbing out of the after effects.

i won't say i'm tired of ppl. the fact that God gave me this passion to want to help proves it. there will certainly be let downs and stuff but it really doesn't matter. u'll get numb after awhile and in the long run, u won't know why u helped in the first place. and it just goes in a cycle after u gather ur passion back together and start caring for them again.

it's the same with life. everything just goes in a cycle. moodswings and what not.

i still don't get it. after trying so hard to get into sa, and having got into a slack but real fun class s31, i don't understand y after all this 'running away from muggers' got me into this scholar class. first it was the chinese situation, now, it's this mugger situation. for 4 yrs i've been trying to run away from chinese. and i guess i'll have 2yrs to suffer in the scholar class.

i really really really miss s31. in comparison with s14, s31 is like a million times better even tho we are incomparably small. it's the closeness that i miss. the times we spent every break together coz only our combis had weird breaks. the times when we played frisbee or netball during pe and our grps were so proportionate that everyone had a chance to play. the times when we had computing and everyone wld go on msn and not listen to mrs tan teach.

the time when we asked mrs goh to cancel gp and we went for class outing to watch robots instead. the time when we had our class photo taken. the time when raymond was stuck up the monkey bar. the time when we stayed back late to prepare for our funfair game. the time during campus rumpus when we volunteered to be targets and were totally drenched. the time when after the funfair we stayed back to play waterbombs.

i really really really really miss s31 ):

it's not that my classmates aren't nice. they are nice ppl (: the scholars are nice. the muggers well, generally they are nice. perhaps, we just don't click. whereas in s31, eugene, thiri, zheyin,vinoth, raymond, weiping and i and the rest will somehow hang out together. our personality just seemed to click like that. but s14's just differenet.

i guess i feel abt the same as weiping. even tho raymond's in the same class, it just doesn't feel the same. it just feels weird having all these ppl as my classmates. real weird.

cmi. so cmi.

i'm so cmi. all i did was just sit right there, on the chair, and stand up. and wow! i twisted my ankle. -.- so cmi laaaaa!! and now i can't walk properly.

eeee my cup noodles tastes horrible. i shan't eat. maybe i'm like too full already.

i slept at 3.30 this morning if u were wondering. almost died after finishing the student profile for mr yit. to think i had an overdose of caffine...i felt weird after drinking the morning coffee and then the dinner coffee...somehow it wore off and i became so tired i just wanted to finish filling in everything and go to sleep asap. oohh..maybe it was the medicine that made me so alert then it wore off. yea...

well, after 5 mere hours of rest, woke up and got ready to go church. i did a qn on fmbin canaan. (:(: hehs. then met up with cherie and laureen to pass them george's shirt. yea. went for sun cell. then george came. last min notice AGAIN. haha! guess i'll miss george alot. since this is the last time he'll visiting sun cell and having lunch with us too. :( i think i miss him alot. ya, but like what jo said, since we'll be moving up to tertiary, we'll still see george AGAIN. and ya. *yawn* he'd better not put me in charge of whatever zone retreat or wad. so sian.

then had 3+9 training. oh yes, got ldr's outing this sat and i cleanly forgotten abt it!! i even wanted to go buy rachel's present *sigh* looks like rachel will get a super belated birthday gift. she kinda looked disappointed just now when passing me her notes tho, like after so long, haven't receive a gift from me. :( ya. coz usually i'll give her smth. but now, not even a card. haha. oh wells.u always got to wait for the best (:

yes, rachel. she didn't warn me of the notes. -.- ok, she did tell me it was v heavy and all that, but i didn't expect it to be THAT bad. ya. and it's like only the first half. how am i going to pass rena all the stuff?? ya. and i miss u rach!! even tho i crap with u everyday still miss u. haha. like we haven't been having that gd ol' late night crap session for eons already. :( miss u man...

saw win when i went into audi. wanted to take photo coz the previous one was so cmi. but he didn't want to la. so nvm. haha. i'll always have that nerdy photo in my phone =D ya then after training, had this small meeting with the other ldrs in my zone to think of smth to put up for george. ya. i think i'll do a video. since i finally have movie maker. and can present it to george somemore. haha! (:(: nice...

went home with jo, my sis, lynn, cherie, melvin, jaslyn and jon. then i took a super funny photo of lynn but she deleted it!!! ya, then were made a super sia sui spectacle of ourselves. so malu. then after that my sis was like laughing like mad. sia sui again.

but i think the most cmi of all is my ankle...

gd nitez.

*yawn*

so tired. so busy. so dead.

i guess my hectic schedule won't end, not today, not tomorrow, not ever. and i used to think i was very free. and of coz, i'd be VERY free if it were not for the other 18 ppl in my class who takes double math, phy and chem. what a crap timetable. thank God and of coz thank mr yit for shifting the thurs end-of-the-day comp slot to the 2hr break i used to have on tues. and all right. i shall stop complaining.

gee...i've never complained so much in my entire life before.

just completed the half of the fma revision tutorial that i knew how to do. and wow, i spent like 3/4 of my supposedly study time to pack my notes and arrange them properly -.- *sigh* haven't exactly started on fmb tut 7 yet coz i only drew the diagrams. yea. but w/o the diagrams i wldn't even know how to embark on the qn.

next, i've to print the attendance for the welcome party, praise the Lord we had 12 new comers (:(: and 56 ppl turned up. no doubt the 44 ppl were mostly leaders, who came if they had integrity(haha) and 7 of them were in the committee, still 12 new comers came. haha. which is like double the previous. so thank God (:

then do a report of our youth anni meeting we had earlier, and hurry my personal-evaluation(or wad is it called?) report for mr yit. and then erm...get some sleep.

lebbillie said my dark rings and eye bags are very bad. mom said not enough sleep can result in alot of health problems. boss says handle all the money for youth anni. my brain is trying to tell me smth. it's saying...go to sleep.

zzz...

zzz...

i also donno y i'm blogging now. like i feel i've got so much to blog but in fact i don't have anything to say.

one hurdle gone. another 2 more 2mr. and one more on sunday. that is, welcome party and youth anni meeting. and on sun, 3+9 training. i hope there ain't training on sunday. else i'll zzZzz....

oh yes, the welcome party. i've yet to draw up the playing paper. like erm...how many pieces are needed? i think i'll do it 2mr morning. *yawn* oh no. i've only like 7hrs left to sleep only.

there's this muggers' club in my class and they call themselves "The MUGGERS' CLUB" notice the italics. whoever wld call themselves muggers? like erm. muggers? goodness. even the word scares me. thank God the scholars in my class AREN'T muggers. so where did this group of 'hardworking beings' came upon?

oh. the singaporean guys. wow. aren't they muggers? imagine them going to empty classrooms, the reading room or library to just finish up assigned tutorials, extra work and even redundant work. -.- like c'mon. what's the pt? not as if mugging WILL get u anywhere. and probably those ppl wld just end up being that quiet treasurer. haha! (:

i feel so sorry for having muggers in my class, who mug real badly. meanwhile i'm enjoying my share of amusement and laughter. i ain't being critical of them. just...it annoys me to see ppl mug. esp ppl whom i deem "not-muggers" apparently reality proved me wrong.

everyone is dying. literally and metaphorically.

hee hee

today's thursday! went for prayer meeting again. haha. i am so spurred on by rach. i don't know why but somehow she just spurs me to got for tpm every week =D thanks rach!! (: ya..i feel so guilty...her birthday's long over yet i haven't gotten her anything ): but i've thot of smth already!! (: hees....

well..tpm today was great.i mean like every prayer meeting is supposed to be great. so this is no different. haha!! this is the first time i see win playing the drums! haha. like so unbelievable...lols. but ya, he played anyways. and he looked so NERD!!! haha! then after prayer meeting i took photo with him. coz din see him for SO LONG and ya. haha. the other time i took with him, the photo so CMI...but today's...it's still so cmi. it's like 2 ppl with cmi hairstyles taking photo. HAHA!! so cmi. im going to have a retake!!!

well..the day started off well. ignoring the fact that i missed the 6:43am bus and had to wait like 15mins for the nx one. and of coz i wasn't late. haha. ya. then oh yes! it's weiping's birthday today!! (: but she was sick. then she cldn't enjoy her mrs field's cookies ): so sad. ya. lessons were all right. i had the motivation to stay awake these days. (: really thank God! (: hees. and of coz with unexpected ppl smsing u, and their pic happen to appear in the middle of a boring lect, who wldn't stay awake? haha!! (:(: and to think i was umchioing the rest of the day. =D

yea. i did smth unexpected today. i talked ot the scholars. haha. i almost dieded lols. mebbe out of words to say to them? or mebbe just that i needed more energy and perseverence in talking to them. yea. esp this china scholar in my class. i didn't talk to her for the first 15mins coz she was speaking in chinese and i was like stunned. "huh?" apa ini? ahaha. ya. and after she finished talking to shane, she asked shane is it i don't understand chinese. -_-'' i was like ahhH!! i do la!!! alamak. so sia suay....

i think i've nv spoken so much chinese in my entire life. i almost got tongue tied. and my chinese don't sound weird la!!

deb ain't coming for cell 2mr. sad. i have to do worship 2mr again. and wow. i haven't done anything yet. *sigh* mebbe i'll just write out the songs. haha. yea. and word too. hmmms.

yaye. mr yit might change our timetable!! haha. (:and weiping might come back to comp class too! was like so funny. i told mr yit that she cldn't take econs and he was like laughing haha! and weiping called him evil. lols! ya. but i really hope that weiping can take comp again. at least i won't feel out of place. haha! (:(:

ya. and i rmbed i haven't sent him the student's profile yet. lols. cmi. i've got like so many deadlines to meet during the weekends. welcome party, youth anni meetings and all that. *sigh* sometimes i feel like i made the wrong choice to go jc. but ya, then again, it's like part of God's plan for me to go jc. so ya. i can't in the sense, complain and complain. like y shld i complain? haha.

actually i've got so much more to update. coz it's like the only time now, that i'm freeeee!! at least i feel free. yea. and there's ava orientation 2mr. i don't feel ike going. i wanna see a doc. i almost suffocated myself with my own phelgm. haha so cmi. then there's cell 2mr and i've to go get george's shirt. *sigh* i wanna sleep for the rest of my life. if only i cld get a decent 12hr-sleep.

ha. yes. yrd was rena's birthday. and i think it's got to be one of her best birthdays ba. even tho she almost had a nightmare and her very x 10^infinite good fren was a walking zombie and her best fren was the last person to wish her happy birthday. haha!! so funny. and ya. i meet jon in queensway too. i didn't know he was working there. haha. so funny. his boss looked as if he wanted to kill me. lols

today was the soccer match between sa and hc. (: and but of coz we won 1-0!!! (: so funny. i was like trying to spot nigel on the field and thanks to anita, i finally did. coz ling was asking whether he was playing not. haha! ya. and i wanted to take a pic of raymond wearing the goalie jersey. coz he looked like a clown. haha!! but i failed la. his pic was like so tiny. then anita took a pic of the goal post. it looks nice eh!!! haha. but then nth can beat my present wallpaper. unless there's another nice pic of the cafe (:(: haha!!

eugene and zheyin still owe me money. and i owe raymond money LOLS

hong mei

haha. hong mei...

my first experience of having to stay back in sch till 5.15 with like 5hrs of continuous lect/tut. it wasn't so bad. really. i almost slept on the way home after fidling too much with my phone until it ran out of batt. my sis tried to call but the phone was out of juice. (:

and so my day started with pe. i miss mr lam. ): mr lam was so nice to us and all that during the 1st 3 months. and now we had to have a change of teacher - mr ho. i guess mr ho's nice, according to shane that is. yea. but perspections always differ. i still miss mr lam. him teaching us netball, him teaching us frisbee, him suaning raymona. (: he's a nice teacher. yea. i hope mr ho will be good.

then my 2.5hr break started. obviously we had to eat. and the guys were like staring at me when i was eating. -_-'' oh wells. and guess what? we ended up mugging in one of the empty classrooms until the nx class came for their tutorial. this was the first time, honestly, that i did homework in sch. i haven't been touching any homework due to my slack attitude and yes, peer pressure, i had to at least complete some of my homework. besides, it is due 2mr. *sigh*

i hate muggers.

raymond and i sat with weiping during lectures. coz that was the only time we cld see weiping. and somehow, we just missed her. it was different w/o weiping. the laughter, the suaning, the very presence of weiping. haha! yea. and it was so fun to just sit with weiping during lectures coz she'd either do smth stupid/funny and we'll laugh or she'd just suan raymond non-stop. lols

it's just different when my other classmates suan raymond. just different.

then gp came, we were supposed to pick coloured cards from an envelop to form groups. who knew, the last 2 cards were of the same colour and suay suay raymona and i were the last 2. -_-'' haha! ya. so i'm like in the same gp grp as him. ya. if the grps remain as pw grp. ahaha that's like 2 yrs with raymona. then i'll really miss weiping ):

yea. i just miss s31 alot.

change it!

we just sat there, in the cafe, stoning.

that was what happened during the 2hr break before phy. at least it happened to me. i didn't do much of my math, coz firstly i didn't understood the qns altho i cld comprehend at least half of the examples she went thru. *shrugs* the tutorials just didn't seem anything similar to the examples. haha. i've been slacking way too much...

must thank estee for helping me with smth (: haha! (: hees...

well, today's the last day i wld be home early. unless i decide to skip cca, which i hope i'll not do it again that often. yea. talked to rachel and xueyan online. both of them were like so bored at work and it was up to me to save the rest of the hour they were left in the office. haha! cmi. i know rach will miss me after today, won't u? lols. afterall, the sch has decided to make us study in sch until 515. what can i do? haha! rush home and try to save the remaining 15mins...LOL

yea. i had enough of complaining already. wanted to complain abt the timetable but oh wells...im too tired to lament.

and yes. i was talking to jeremy mok, my classmate. initially i didn't know his name. and i felt so bad to ask him. so i had to check out the class list. haha! cmi. i was talking to him for 15min and i realised i didn't know his name =/ but besides that, we crapped alot and ya *sigh*

finally, marie bought rena's present. (:

finally!!!

hee hee... my mom finally bought me a new phone (: yea.

initially i wanted the t630, which is jo's phone, and jiajia's, and xinyi's and 2 china ppl's phone...ya, but in the end, mom realized that the k700i was a better model(which was actually what i wanted but over budget). yups. then surprisingly, she gave me the choice to which phone i wanted! and of coz i chose the better one - k700i. haha!

yea. so mean right? besides, i rather get a new/old phone that's been in the market for almost a yr than on that's been sold for like 2 years already. ya. so in the end, i was a happy girl (: haha! and ya. the first thing i did before i went to sleep was take monkey's pic from my com. LOL.now my pretty phone has a beautiful wallpaper (: hees...

i think my phone's kinda cool and all. but i haven't figured out how to turn off the sound when taking photo. it's...distracting.

for everyone, this week has been tiring. for me, this week has really stretched me. going for tpm was an effort and sharing my testimony on fri during ldrs' training was smth which i didn't imagine having the courage to. but thank God my emotions didn't get the better of me (:

having to really undertake the West cell was a big challenge. and knowing what i should be focusing on right now instead of being part of everything else was another knowledge gained. mixing ard with the newcomers is smth i'd nv dreamt of doing but God gave me the courage and the heart to reach out.

being able to stay awake for every event that's happened is smth which i'd call a mircale, considering the fact that i didn't have enough sleep and rest this whole week. learning to listen from God thru His people has made me listen to His voice better. and learning to understand my dreams has made me realize all this while, God did help me and speak to me. it's only whether i understood them and knew that they were God-given.

all in all, this week has been a fruitful week and i was drained. but now, i'm refreshed (:

resurrected

i died and now i'm alive...

didn't go for house talk ytd, coz i thot i wldn't be going for clao talk. i seriously regretted going for the clao talk. coz in the end i got nth out of it. nt that it'd persuade me to take clao again. and no, i'm nt going beijing either. i can't go. it clashes with youth anni. haha

after sch went home to slack. mom was at home but she didn't want to buy my phone. again. maybe i'll try tonight after i come home from shopping. haha. yea. then i went church early, in mind of studying and finishing my tutorials. but, i ended up joining the gmss outreach com meeting, which i was kinda an extra there coz..ya, i was extra. haha!! ya. then i did like one or 2 parts to a qn. deb came and later went to join her and brian for dinner, even tho i just ate mac. i just sat there trying to do my tutorials.

and then i realize, i cldn't find the angle from 2 planes. i didn't know how to. *sigh* i need to study my egs AGAIN. i thot it'd be ez. haha. since it's only a matter of how u view the whole diagram and stuff, lil did i know that "wow the angle isn't 90° even tho it seems to me it's 90°" -.-

i think i've been stoning and sleeping too much in lectures already. i seem to be falling asleep during sermons and meetings in chruch. and it's so diffcult to stone since the youth always take the front few rows during meetings. yea. i tried so hard to stay awake.

i was so tired i almost fell asleep on the train and while walking to church. *yawn* and i was so tired i took a cab home, without thinking whether i had the money to pay for the fare. haha! and it turned out i didn't. thank God my sis was still awake. haha. so i asked her to bring the money down. lols.

going out to buy all the presents, and how on earth am i going to get the money. ahaha!! cmi. might be watching movie with rena afterall.

i finally slept for 9hrs today. im so going to sleep for 12hrs tonight.

tired..ahhhhhh!!

so tired so tired

i shan't blog today. i shall blog today's blog 2mr. if i make it alive after ldrs' training 2mr.

life concert was great (: tho i left super early. tpm was great too! (:

i need to sleep.

right now, i need to eat first.

fading

and it poured till it flooded...

i kinda like the rain, at times when it's super hot. but today was drastic. pity those ppl who were stuck at the gallery. after the communication skills workshop, shane(not from band) and i stayed to eat prata to wait for the flood to stop. yea. and we stupidly walked thru the main gate, sharing a pathetically small umbrella, thinking the side gate wldn't be opened. and we were drenched when we reached the bus stop. apparently, the side gate was OPENED. -_-l

signed up for ava and sfc. not sure why i choose them again, but ya, i wanted a slack cca so ya. haha. and i signed up for 2 flag days, thinking that i'm forever free. but i hope i'll be free on those days. (:(:

argh!! jia jia hasn't sent me the meeting report!! and i got to like send the report to ps rachel asap. *faints* got to stay up late today AGAIN. hopefully i'll like win spider solitaire a few times so that i'll not be so gek when i keep losing. lols

rachel is lame. she said hi when she was abt to go offline. -_-l

after photo taking, which i tihnk i'll look rather retarded, raymond, yilin and i went to the library. apparently, we went there to chat. haha! and i had to leave the library THREE times coz ppl kept calling me. -.- 3 times. haha. like of all times, call me when i'm in the library. luckily i wasn't caught, else i'll have to be sent for dc like for no gd reason. then later, weiping joined us and we laughed and laughed at raymona's photo. lols! so CMI!!! ahahahha!! i din bring home his photo, else i'd have scanned it already. haha! oh wells...

and ya, that's when i noticed smth. that raymond looks like monkey!!!!! ahaha!! only that raymond's face is shorter, fatter and tanner and his eyes are much bigger. yea. other than that, he looks like monkey. haha!! so cmi. maybe because of his hairstyle that's why. haha! to think i only noticed it like today... lol

life concert's 2mr. hope it'll be great (:

escaping

tried to do a writing but i failed...

ahhh.. been feeling so sick recently. yea. maybe i'm recalling my traumatic birth. i don't know why but recently i seem to be just avoiding everyone. obviously nt those whom i spend the whole day with. and not really avoiding either. just ignoring. i can't be bothered to say hi to anyone else. i think i really need a day-off from sch just to sleep. i need my rest badly. i can't wait til saturday night. then i'll be getting my 12hr sleep.

seems to me that i'm just escaping from everyone else. im so tired. just leave me alone.

headache

and today i suddenly felt so free...like i have all the time in the world to do my stuff...

2hrs of phy. almost killed me. haha. it was actually redundant. unless they taught dynamics and ideal gases. and again, i slept. haha. i slept thru the 2nd lecture. coz haha. for the first lecture, raymond did smth unintentionally. haha. i can't say, and initially i didn't notice either. hees...

then during the mindef talk, went to join lsn, was quite boring today act. lsn didn't really crapped much. not that i remembered of. maybe we only like spent 1h plus together. unlike last month. yea. i miss 1st intake so badly.

when weiping went for econs, raymond and i went to the library. i think this is like the 3rd time i entered the library. ahha once a month. hey i'm improving!! the last time, my record was like once in 2 yrs?? haha!! i don't like reading. i just can't seem to get any interest out of reading.

yea. the library was super cold. and i read a lil from some bks. haha. at least i read. then there was this bk abt ufos. saying what the aliens did when they abduct human beings and what these ppl said. and the reason they gave to prove all these is wrong, is that these ppl either had traumatic childhoods (haha) or they remembered how they were born. apparently, their statement is that "everyone remembers how they were born, which is a very traumatic experience. it's either it was too traumatic that they don't rmb or they rmb it and recapture it as an alien abduction" haha it sounds crappish to me lah.

then had comp lessons. heh. i managed to figure my way out and did some silly surveys with raymond. LOL like lovecalculator. so crap. i tested monkey and me = 99%. LOL but it's crap lah. haha!! ya. then did iq test. got 136. so obviously is crap. haha! stand proven.

some guys look cool and cute and all that, but their personality doesn't match. some guys appear not as good looking and on the average side, but their personality can be even worse. life ain't a bed of roses. apparently. but some guys are just graded gentlemen (:

it doesn't pay...

nth really much happened today. just that i've been REAL tired recently and i just feel like sleeping everywhere i go. after fma, weiping and i went to the study corner outside lt1 to sleep. ahaha! because we fell asleep while ms tan was teaching, again. so we thot mebbe we cld like sleep for awhile before comp lesson started. but ya, the table smelt weird and we didn't get to slp in the end. ate chicken rice instead. haha!

yea. and guess what? i almost fell asleep during fma make up when she was teaching bino. nth much actually. ahah. i wasted my time going for the makeup when i cld actually figure it out myself at home.

after sch, stayed awhile primarily because it was pouring heavily and non-stop too. it had rained the whole day. the grass on the field was dying. sad. haha. poor soccer and rugby boys. lols. poor raymona.

then went with rena to chinatown to get her uniform. haha. and we bought some stuff like a bk on ci xi. -.- lols.

k lah. actually i gotto rush to eat dinner now. been pigging the whole day already. need to sleep early. heess~

yawwnnn

so tired so tired...

it's actually my bedtime now! i shldn't be blogging.

today was a gd day. yea. (: i love church man. it's like the best place on EARTH. the best place wld be heaven. but heaven ain't on earth so ya. (: hehs. 2nd wld be my bedroom ahaha..i love my bed. but i haven't got a chance to sleep for half a day. *sigh* that wld be my mission! ahahaha!! i think i laugh like wil. but oh wells. actually i haven't really heard him laugh. haha!!

today attended sun cell. coz jo and i were supposed to like remain there for abt a month or so b4 the cell is considered stabalised.yups. cell was fun (: got to make another new fren - michelle! haha! this is like the how-many-michelle i know already. ya. and the WEST cell will grow! (: heees.

i almost fell asleep during sermon, during cet and everywhere. was so tired. yea. have been sleeping like 6hrs everyday. i miss my sat late-morning-wake-ups. and i don think i'll be joining band le. i dont even have time to sleep now. much less go for ccas on sats. i'll be dead before 1st block tests. lols

ya. but youth was gd (: i really needed that lah. i didn't expect myself to be a ldr. i thot like "ok, mebbe george won't choose me. mebbe ps rach won't choose me." i was ok with the decision. like i didn't really have much of an opinion. just, ok, ya, all right, full stop. ya. i knew leadership is smth that is tough. i knew there was so much more for me to do. i just didn't know it was SO BAD.

ya. but all that i've been draining myself is my energy and faith in God. all these things aren't accomplised by my own strength and i know it. but so much has happened that i just feel that i've got no more strength to believe and have that faith in God anymore. it's like the soul is willing but the flesh is weak. and i'm so tired. im really so tired. tired that i just feel it's time for me to give up. but i know it isn't.

God told me before 2004 ended that 2005 wld be a year of excitement and a yr of so much more miracles. and i believe it's true. not only my senior pastor confirmed that bethel wld be experiencing so much of God's presence in 2005 but so many miracles have happened in my life already even tho the yr has just kicked off and it's only april now. yups. 2005 is certainly another different yr and so much adaptations to make. but i believe God will do smth great in my life (:

dealing with scholars aint' ez. it's esp hard for me to accept that fact that there are china ppl in my class. honestly, i've bad experiences with china ppl. i knew of only one nice china girl. and it only lasted for a yr or 2 before she moved on to a different sch after her psle. but then, God told me to love them more. be a fren to them. at least, try ur best to talk to them. nvm if ur chinese is horrible like anything. i admit my chinese cmi. but ya. at least talk to them. i don really know what will happen, but i guess i'll just allow God to lead me in this area of my life. that's smth i can't avoid and i can't escape from. so y not.

so from now on, i'll make a pact that i won't laugh at them. so i've removed the column of entertainment of laughing at them. perhaps i shld just forcus on my writing skills. my language...*shakes head*

today had anni meeting. cldn't go home with jo AGAIN. aiya. i just miss going home with jo, talking rubbish on the way home on the long train journey. ya. it's been a v long while since i last went home with her. including the fact that i cldn't go home with her either coz i had intern after svc. and now? 3+9!!! i just hope nx yr i'll be able to go home with her every sun. that's if i manage to survive thru the year. and ya, i'll miss u in church nx sun. :( sad. haha. but oh wells...

Idrs' meeting

today there was ldrs' meeting. initially i didn't want to go. i read that 2 pieces of paper and concluded that the meeting wld be boring and dead. i almost died after the dinner. was so tired!! *sigh* 4 days of orientation weren't fun. it was fun i mean, yet tiring.

ok 4 days of no rest. then fri had cell, slept late again. today's ldr's meeting. i almost died. thanks to my 2 cups of coffee (:(: yea. and i was like awake. but the meeting was unexpectedly interesting. to listen to their pts and arguements and stuff and of coz to feel God's prescence there. it's sooooo nice to just feel the Holy Spirit when u are so down and on the verge of dying. haha. it was real nice (: heees...

i shld go slp now. since im dying. and there's anni meeting 2mr after church. still can't go home with jo :( so sad. haven't gone home with her for WEEKS already. haha. oh wells...

cell

hehs. ytd was the first friday cell for the sunday grp. (: it worked out pretty well..except for the few late-comers. haha

the lecture time table has finally started. was so looking forward to it, at least i don't have to face the scholars in my class during orientation games. much more freedom to follow my friends for lectures instead of my class. even tho i used to follow my class for lects and tuts(obviously) for the 1st 3 months, some how, i didn't really feel like following s14 this time.

maybe i'm abit held back by s31. i miss u all, weiping, thiri, raymond, eugene, zheyin, vinoth, louis, alex, shiqi, jianwei, mexcel, kang hao, wei hou...ya. even tho we weren't that close and i didn't say a word to kang hao and wei hou, haha oops, i still miss u guys. i think u guys are so much better than s14. totally.

yups. lects were super boring. we had TWO HOURS of physics. and he RETEACHED!!! alamak, if i were smarter, i wld have rather rot in the cafe with rena. apparently i wasn't. then after phy, there was fmath lect, but there was this irritating 2hr break in between. haha and u wldn't imagine what i did.

initially i wanted to skip fmathb lect, thinking she wld reteach, and she did la. waste my time. i went to ps with rena, marie, piak loo and kawing, supposedly to take neoprints. we ended up looking for bags. haha. but there were so nice!! and their prices were even nicer!! wow. ya. my mom wld kill me if i asked her to get me that bag. haha. oh wells. then we took neoprints and i had to go home, to at least prepare smth for cell later, but it was like 1.30pm. -.- ya, but i cldn't stay to eat either. haha. i was too broke. i wanted to go home, but when i was in the mrt, i thot, since i was going to harbour, might as well go back to sch, since i was still in time for the lecture. haha!! cmi. so i rushed back, just in time. lols.

after lect, wanted to buy tie. the queue was SUPER LONG. ya, and i didn't know there was a tie queue too! haha! so funny. one side uniform one side tie. ya. and i think by the time i returned mad her tie and finished eating, the queue was gone. lol. that's like so fast and efficient. i think nhss can nv achieve that standard, even tho parents mended the stalls there and in sa, the students sell the unis. hees..sa rawks man. lols

ya. for cell, we did have fun. played daidee lol. and worship lasted only 10min. like -.- so cmi coz we started at 8 and had to end abt 9 so ya rushed thru. but it's no gd. so ppl better come early nx time. ya. haha and didn't really share much. just like grp discussion and stuff. i think it's got to be the worst sharing ever haha. but only like 3 other turned up and ya. for the first cell didn't want to spoil ppl's mood by laying smth so serious and heavy, much less on an empty stomach. they were famished.

then came food. mom prepared alot. and they almost finished every bit of it. haha. i didn't eat much. coz i was super full after dinner. lols. yups. then after they left, my sis cleared the house and i followed them to the bus stop. was so tired by then. i almost died. haha!

jo! maysi! u all missed the fun and the FOOD man. lols =D

today, i had to wake up at 8. i was forced. the housekeeper wanted to come at 8. the weather now is like so NICE to sleep. *sigh* and this week had been horrible. haha not horrible in the sense horrible, but horrible as in TIRING. lols. induction and orientation. so tired now. i think i can sleep for 7 days and 7 nights. hees. and later i've got to go church for some ldrs meeting. boring. all the politics. haha. oh wells. and 2mr got 3+9. and monday sch starts AGAIN. ahhh i don't want the speech thing...*wails* i want to slack. haha.